Again without even thinking you just went barging with your mouth open not even thinking first before or waiting for an answer.
You always like to voice out your dissatisfaction, you don’t care about how others feel as long as you can voice out whats in your mind or even your feelings.
Then again thats what your good @
I’m back with my old habits, going out drinking and getting drunk.
I realize when the pressure of living has caught up to you, it tends to swallow you up and to be able to turn away from this sorrow of emotional pain is to fill it up with another pain.. pain for the body.
Life is not always as pleasing and funny… when we tend to loose those emotions of being happy we forget who we are and try to relinquish that sadness with something that we tend to leave behind.
This past days I have let my problems get the best of me, drowning my emotions with drinks. I tend to care less for my self nowadays.
Self pity is all so passive in me right now, I tend to get weary of this.
Their will be a time for relaxation and looking into one self. I need time to be with myself alone and to understand what I want in my life.
@ the age of 30 I’m still not sure what my life is, I have been dependent on everyone for my pleasure and comfort and now someone made me realize that in the future those individuals which I tend to rely upon will not be there and knowing that I am not sure where I stand.
This past few days didn’t gave me time to blog about. It not as pleasant as it seems. Two of my treasures in life got sick and confine in a medical facility, to my pain they are suffering from severe coughing. I’m trying my best to be strong for them yet I cannot give them the proper assistance when it comes to financial help.
I’m thankful for their mother for being their, as a sign of thankfulness I try to in anyway I can to make their mother happy in times of trouble.
Recent discussions made me realize something which I cannot include in this blog. Sudden changes in views. Hope I will have to courage to open this to the right person.
Somehow someone already gave up, yet I do hope that will change.
In due time I will be able to stand on my own feet and head raised up high.
Pride has been hurt in this manner… and I don’t know yet how this will be cured.
- We may sometimes feel that our way is much better than theirs but in reality what we are doing is just pulling them back rather than making them progress in time -
